Day 53 – Wednesday, 2 Jan

My first appointment with Matthew Parks at Batterdrum Mental Health. He does the intake paperwork to get me started with counselling.

Today I gave up hope of reconciling with Maria. It’s what I want, but I’m convinced it won’t happen. I write in my journal “I’ve pretty much given up even thinking of reconciliation with Maria. She wants help – she has asked so often. But if God hasn’t softened her heart by now, I don’t know that He will. I’ll try talking to Maria’s lawyer, but I confess to having little hope.”